Acknowledgments

Thanks to the editors of the following publications in which some of the poems in this blogbook first appeared:

Columbia Poetry Review : “The Individual Talent”, “A Relationship”, “After Ted Berrigan”, “My Love Has Little Mercy”, “Word Problem (for Ron Padgett)”, “Sic”, “After Otomo No Yakamochi (718-785)”

The Hay(na)ku Anthology, Vol. II : "The Weatherman"

Lilliput Review: “Confessional”

Mid-America Poetry Review : "Poem (for A.R. Ammons)"

Milk : “What Is”

Ribot : “Presence”, “History (after Bill Knott)”, “Loveless (1)”, “Loveless (2)”, “Thought”

Shampoo : “Part (for Tom Clark)”

Ugly Duckling : “Pissing with Paul Verlaine”, “American Poetry Review”

We : "Tag" (digital collage version)
 

A Note on the Poems

Most of the poems here were made in 1998 as part of a numbered series that grew to more than two hundred. Many of the others are from between 2000 and 2002 when the poems from the original series were either discarded or kept and given titles. Poems were moved into and out of the series over the next four years with a handful of new ones added.

June 2007

The Individual Talent

So as not to wear my feelings on my sleeve
I slipped into my objective correlative shoes.
They suitably contained all that I felt or believed,
But inside I was singing the hollow man blues.

To Sotère Torregian in 1968

Loony as pants
The young poet
Asserts a wit
Embodied in riots
And startling fate
With its secret
Beat and not
So secret instruments.

Pissing with Paul Verlaine

My heart is a toy lost
like a paper sailboat launched
on the swan lake of a John
Ashbery poem—

Oppen Ended

It is difficult now to speak of
    poetry—
it is that light,
It is the air of atrocity.

The Sun after Kerouac

I’ve come to call you nothing,
O egg fried over hard.

What Is

this path in the woods that separates
us as I reach across it roses
bloom in place of fingertips while
the other side of the path is pushed
so far into the distance it is
the rose that circles you as you
walk—less and less knowingly—away

A Relationship


Bing!  goes the microwave.

“Your coffee’s done.”

“It’s not coffee. It’s carrots.”

Presence

The thought
of leaving
my hometown
when I
don’t even
have one.

Impromptu (A Country Ditty)

Mountain black morning
Smoky black rain
Gonna fill you with me someday

I am the pill
In a field of amarillo
Lefty lonesome & grave

Rain on the roses
Stones in my shoes
Dawn cowboys the mountain

After Ted Berrigan

My monkey self
Is bigger than
Your monkey self
So help me, God.

Variation on a Theme by Aram Saroyan

Ted Berrigan
would approve
this idear
but he's through
into the vast
orange library
of the past.

My Love Has Little Mercy

When I make myself her horse
I feel like a blind curve
I want to lay myself to rest
In the surface of the Brass River
Carve our names inside a tree
And not lash out at the simple sky.

Kronos, Fragment

harder than diamond, softer than light,
shaper of song, love's Kryptonite

Aubade

All across in
morning’s fields
water leaves
little shoes

In morning’s beds
bodies touch
like envelopes
and pens in desks

Greeting Card    (for KC)

Hoping to feel what is
the empty space
happening between us
whenever the surface
erases a given
memory, sensation.

Word Problems    (for Ron Padgett)

1. None of us really knows what to write
    as we watch the pus gathering around heaven
    sores opening where clouds once were,
    but the thing is we are given
2. A kind of lukewarm craziness of heart.

Sic

There’s something
about living
in the moment
that defies me.

History   (after Bill Knott)

The period is nothing
but a stoic comma.

After Otomo No Yakamochi (718-785)

Law and Order over,
I turn off the light and wait
for sleep’s fur-lined cuffs.

Poem   (for W.B. Keckler)

The silence under
the stars tonight
rides the silence
of sounds in space.

American Poetry Review

Inside the piece of paper
My hand unwinds a watch
The windows tense as drums
I write only about myself.

Pandemonium Race

What are we if not the
pant & moan we embrace?

The World after Creeley

The emptiness
outside is vast
but not so vast
as the empty
nest inside me.

Loveless (1)

The sky, when it
smells like spermicide;
I grab my coat
and find a place to sit.

Memorandum

The passenger pigeon
is still extinct.

Summer Camp   (after Joe Ceravolo)

Dawn percolating
and me
just whizzing
Bye!

Pain Song, A Cento

What about the light that comes in
Like a rock or some other heavy thing
The body pushes
If there is any relief from it any slippage
I won’t be needing my hat anymore

Rough Trade

Like the pyramids
the essential ingredients
of great plagiarism
are a lot of time
and many others.

Metaphor

This poem
is not
a loaf
of bread.

Confessional

The strong cursive
of the dance
of his adolescence

in living rooms
dark parking lots
and dead ends

in the courtyard
of his own
private Osiris.

The Weatherman

I am not
the weather
reports.

Loveless (2)

Going around my place
shutting windows with my
teeth is the only
eroticism I have left.

Parable

“I am God,”
He said to the birds.
“I am God,”
He said as
They pecked at the dirt.

Paper Cuts   (for Courtney Love)

As a crumpled piece of paper
the world opens
sorrows / dawn baskets
what dawn severs
from the inescapable sky.

PoMo Haiku

Comma,
   dash—
      period.

I Was a Catholic Boy, Too

I yawn and imagine
I’m being sucked in
to myself. Only to end
floating like a witch
down the currents of
a toilet bowl flushed
by a disinterested god.

Memorandum

Ecstasy: not impossible.
But an infinite number
of bodies inhabiting
any given planet: yes.

Query

Why would anyone want to be a poet?
I could be outside, April cool and crisp
As a rear spoiler glazed with frost.
I could get in, start the car, and go
Anywhere, or at least to Stop & Shop
To pick up the syrup and milk we need.

Loveless (3)

I’m a serious man who sits
in socks and underwear,
who stares into the blinds
waiting on something dear.

About Now

The way I feel you must feel it too.
The gun in a world without any hands.

Poem    (for A.R. Ammons)

A feather
floating upward
for no
apparent reason,

only to
reverse itself
and make apparent
sense.

Asterisk

These poems
are not
in French.

Wake

The yoriki’s eyes
after Konoe died
like prominent citizens
at Kodai Temple
moving into shadows.

Apologia

I can’t explain
the words
I have written
can’t contain
the clouds
on the horizon.

Tag

Over now under
the T the streets
like Renaissance artists
stretch seaward

Sky pulled tight
as the skirt
of the Ally McBeal
standing hmm
across the aisle

Riding a train's
a subtle dance

Hello my name is
The Cities
by Paul Blackburn

The Refusal

I will not die in Paris. I will not die
in the rain. I will not die anywhere
at anytime. Quite simply, I refuse.

Rubberneckers

Slower than shit, the cars
scale the Interstate. A pile
up Live at Five. Those
who pass, like poets, strain

to catch, maybe, a glimpse—
of what? Shattered glass? Signs
of a fire? Bloodstains on
the blacktop—if they're lucky?

Thought

It’s hard
to imagine
a better
obsession.

Loveless (4 a girl)

I was going to chase you
across the field and over
the barbed wire fence
almost certain you wanted me to

like Solomon's young buck
I chased you across the field
but scarred my body good
when I couldn't hop the fence.

Curtain Call

Goodbye you
sincere eyes
who happened
to be
on stage.

Old School    (for Kreg Wallace)

Sometimes it’s hard to tell
if the rain is coming or going,
if the poets that move are
shivering or just plain old
breathing.

Detail

Whispered
so long—
mouth now
overgrown.

Blue Books on a Given Shelf

Comrade Past & Mister Present
You Are Happy

April Galleons
The Cities

The Light Around The Body
Scrambled Eggs & Whiskey

[wordless spine]
The Flowering Stone

Experience

Language
gets cornered
in a single wave
goodbye.

Part    (for Tom Clark)

The door of undress and removal of days
inches out toward night. Goodbye poets!

Lady Madonna! The art of you waits with
muddy bottom, tiny bell, and mattress eyes

cast in berry light. Wisdom narrows
to a blue kiss in which what creaks in darkness

shuts, as the orgasm around me—O tambourine!—
parts like mind from trembling water.